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No Shame in My Depression Game

I get skiddish when I meet new people and then we become Facebook friends -mostly because I go and friend ‘em on Facebook. I suppose that makes me a bit of a massichist but let’s put a pin in that for now. I also find myself uncomfortable when my co-existing online and real life friends…

Take Up Time

My goal in my day to day has always been to have nothing to do which is different than doing nothing and if you get that then you get me. Anyway. In order to achieve my daily goal I have always rushed through my to-do’s to get to the glorious nothing to do and let…

This and That

Sometimes- okay a lot of times- I see beautiful women with curves in all the right places and I think “maybe I should try harder to look like that” and then I remember that I did try hard to look like that and while I had a “she didn’t let herself go” figure, I had…

Managing Mantras

Depression is a beast. A monster. Maybe even a demon. It is ruthless and relentless and I think it might be evil. It is brain numbing and soul crushing and life sucking. It taints the very thing we need to release ourselves from its grasp: our mind. And it destroys the one thing it takes…

Right Kind of Hard

I would say over the last several years that there has been a lot of talk about a mental health crisis. Especially among our teens. I have heard it from therapists and teachers and parents. I have even said it myself. But I’ve been thinking: what if it’s not a crisis so much as an unraveling. What…

Okay Dokay

Look, I know there’s a lot of good in the world. I know there are helpers and healers and there is magic in the mundane and joy for the taking but also I can’t shake the feeling that there’s so much heavy and the heavy doesn’t seem to be lifting. In fact, I think it’s…

Shut It Down

Announcing a social media departure may be one of the biggest faux pas a millennial can commit but I’m a solid-born-in-1984-millennial and I don’t know how to do things without over explaining myself so here we are. It’s no secret that online apps have offered me more anxiety than education and it’s also no secret…

Easy Does It

There’s a chapter in my book detailing my love affair with cigarettes (yes, that’s a shameless book plug but trust I have a point) and if I’m being honest, it is a battle that comes up quite often. And it comes up most often in times of stress and if there is one thing I…

A Taco Dip Christmas Story

Sometimes things are hard. Sometimes hard things don’t care that it’s supposed to be the most wonderful time of the year. Sometimes the holidays are trying and filled with uncertainty and fear and grief and regret and doubt. Sometimes the pockets of joy are few and far between. Sometimes the holiday magic eludes your best…

Heart and Soulful

There’s something about finding your people that is incredible. I spent a lot of years in this online space believing that my words held value even when my book proposal was turned down by agent after agent after agent. They all offered similar feedback: your social media following is just too small. Read: my words…