Once upon a time I deactivated my social media accounts and in doing so, Facebook deleted my Rebel Housewife page and that means it also deleted all the micros that I had written which is all well and good but also it was definitely an unexpected consequence of my social media sabbatical.
In order to avert such tragedy from ever occurring again, I am going to share my social media micros over here on the blog too; just so they don’t go anywhere when I inevitably deactivate all social media again and again because my struggle with social media remains real.
A few months back, I was driving down a rural highway when a rock hit my driver’s side window at the exact wrong angle and shattered the entire thing.
No one was hurt and we got it fixed but since that moment I have been terrified to travel on roads with my windows down.
If it can do that to our minivan window, what would it do to my family’s head?
Intrusive thoughts are unsettling and uncomfortable and, unfortunately, unavoidable.
The voice of reason-AKA my husband- has assured me (a medical professional) that human skulls are made differently than tempered auto glass.
I have been mulling that over and today the 68 degree, humid free weather beckoned me to crack my driver’s side window and while the fresh air was delightful, I played a game of windows up, windows down for the better part of my drive.
Here’s the thing: intrusive thoughts don’t resolve with reason and anxiety isn’t a concept that can be rationalized away.
It takes having constant back and forth conversations in your mind debating possibility versus probability.
It takes practice and faith and surrendering and it’s exhausting and I just wanted to validate that for anyone else out there who battles such thoughts.
It’s not easy to manage but it is possible and I want to encourage you to keep trying if for no other reason than the joy that can be found in cruising with the windows down.
Originally posted on Rebel Housewife Blog
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